Year 2005 was really a dreadful year for me.
Sometime in the month of February, I had this bad dream ( I forgot already the details of that dream).When I woke up, I felt numbness on the left part of my body. So I decided to visit University’s clinic which is just fifty steps away from my house to University’s gate.
The clinic attendant did normal procedure and found out that I have a blood pressure level of 130/90. The attending physician told me to go directly to the University’s hospital. Out of panic and nervousness, I felt ventilated. The hospital is about 15 minutes drive from the clinic. I don’t have a car and I took the public passenger’s jeepney. I seated at the front seat and asked the driver if possible not to take more passengers along the road because I need to reach the hospital soon. I paid extra money to the driver for that. When I take off from the jeepney I took again a trisikad (bicycle with 3 wheels). When I reached the hospital I had a feeling of relief because somehow I know I am already in the safe place. However, I was not attended by a physician immediately. I started to feel that my teeth is nibbling and my left face drooped down. The neurologist came after approximately an hour. On that time, I already feel confused though I still managed to call my friend (Lizet) informing her that I am in the hospital.
Thanks God! After several hours, I manage to recover. According to the Doctor, I had a Transient Ischemic Attack (TIA). I stayed in the hospital for about a week. My classmates stayed with me in the hospital. (Somehow, if no one would care for you, there are always sent proxies for your family that will do take care of you.)
Following from my hospitalization, I had trauma, depression and panic attack. I kept on coming back several times in the hospital because of fear of recurring attack. I consulted several doctors until such time that reach a point hating doctors because they caused me too much expenses - unnecessary expenses. I felt that I only spending money for nothing.
LESSON: DO NOT PANIC! Doctors tend to tell situations where patients may cause panic and worst, exacerbate the situation especially if the your case is hypertension. Ignore what the doctor has said. Instead, relax and surrender to God. In God, everything will be taken cared of.
